Not been myself probably for the past 2 weeks, due to the tests. Failing one after another.
I kept telling myself i can do this. But results just dont show likewise. Im nowhere close to passing my cpft, struggling with the swing trainer. Worst still, i failed my ippt this week, twice. my sbj just hit free falling state these few weeks, and i dunno wads wrong. Different mates looked at my jump, and all are telling me different stuffs. Whats happening?! Really desperate times now with so little time left to passing out. Just 4 more weeks. Excluding the last week for parade rehearsal, just 3 weeks left provided i even make it to the parade. haiz. i tink i really hit a wall this time and dont have the slightest idea of gettin round it. the sight of seeing ppl improving while im going the other direction is just too much for me.
Sum it off, newcastle lost again. i know.

Guess i need a miracle from somewhere..