Dear diary,

Im blogging once now only every week, not cause I dun hav the time. Hell, I stayed at home the whole weekend, no work, just sleeping and doing nothing. Its jus I dunno what to write anymore. I have nothin to confide anymore. Keepin everythin to myself. Sometimes I always think of what my mum said, I have many friends, lots of them. Too many. But, how many are ........................... ? I shall not talk abt this here. Have no wish to. Im slowly fadin away..to nothin but a nobody.

Past week..

This past week has been such a torture to go thru..and i tot last week was worst..

My 'bosses' quarrelled over work. Me and my 'colleague' kept quiet. I didnt noe what were they quarrelling abt. They dun tell me anything. Its always the case. One always being stubborn, the other always shouting, always mentioning abt dying, committing suicide, being worked to death, got this illness, what if got stroke. Im seriously sick of it. Has really been a quiet house since then. Perhaps this is why my bro is still not back yet. I feel like getting out of the house all the time, but on the other hand, i dun have the mood to go out. So I tried to make things right. Talked to him alone, but I still could not solve anything. Totally out of my hands. Only thought a lot. Remember the show i was talking abt? "Money can prove to be a blessing, but can also spell disaster." Its always about money, making money for yourself, for your children. But at the expense of happiness in the family, i rather not. I rather you dun think so much for us, or our future. Just enjoy, retire earlier, and a happy family. But, sad to say..its not that simple.

Ich bin trinken...

Have been drinking a lot this past week. Too much in fact. Even at home, will just pop a tiger and gulp it down.
When i went for football this morning, i got tired so easily, and felt like i lost some agility. hahas..
Drank my week away, thats y it passed so quickly. Another eventful week. Haiz. Wonder u guys have been watching "Tang Xin Feng Bao" on SCV channel 55 lately? Its abt a family, keep quarelling here and ther, over work over everything.
I likened the show to my family currently. Not saying its exactly the same, but alike. Workin for your parents is no mean feat, not as easily as it looks. Always under pressure to NOT to put a foot wrong, to the slightest detail. U get depressed if u do, or even worse, tempers flare. I admit im quite short-tempered at times, esp. while working with your family, tend to flare up even more easily. I cant explain why, its the pressure, or the stress or u are workin for your own money anyway..I really cant pinpoint a particular reason why. And once the argument starts, it is brought back home to dinner, to the next day...Sigh..

我为朋友兩肋插刀,
谁为我 ?

I always help people...
but who will help me??

Leavin..

Sorry if i angered u.
Sorry if i disappointed u.

Guess I deserve this treatment.

Anyway..heres a nice song.

Leavin' by Jesse, hopefully u'll be able to follow the lyrics below.