I know. i know. Happy post, yea? It has been ages a less-emo post came up, so....lets see. hmmm. I will just post a video which literally made my week.

"Britain's got talent". Wondered how many of u actually heard of this show before? I seriously think this is like the best reality show ever. It showcases talents. No matter how u look like, it doesnt matter. How great it is if everyone in the world has one talent of its kind, wouldnt that be so cool?

If this doesnt make your day, I dont know what will =) Enjoy! Catch the other performances too if u've got the time. This show really rocks to more than the core.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0X2rbfF1n0&feature=related

Dear diary,

Im blogging once now only every week, not cause I dun hav the time. Hell, I stayed at home the whole weekend, no work, just sleeping and doing nothing. Its jus I dunno what to write anymore. I have nothin to confide anymore. Keepin everythin to myself. Sometimes I always think of what my mum said, I have many friends, lots of them. Too many. But, how many are ........................... ? I shall not talk abt this here. Have no wish to. Im slowly fadin away..to nothin but a nobody.

Past week..

This past week has been such a torture to go thru..and i tot last week was worst..

My 'bosses' quarrelled over work. Me and my 'colleague' kept quiet. I didnt noe what were they quarrelling abt. They dun tell me anything. Its always the case. One always being stubborn, the other always shouting, always mentioning abt dying, committing suicide, being worked to death, got this illness, what if got stroke. Im seriously sick of it. Has really been a quiet house since then. Perhaps this is why my bro is still not back yet. I feel like getting out of the house all the time, but on the other hand, i dun have the mood to go out. So I tried to make things right. Talked to him alone, but I still could not solve anything. Totally out of my hands. Only thought a lot. Remember the show i was talking abt? "Money can prove to be a blessing, but can also spell disaster." Its always about money, making money for yourself, for your children. But at the expense of happiness in the family, i rather not. I rather you dun think so much for us, or our future. Just enjoy, retire earlier, and a happy family. But, sad to say..its not that simple.

Ich bin trinken...

Have been drinking a lot this past week. Too much in fact. Even at home, will just pop a tiger and gulp it down.
When i went for football this morning, i got tired so easily, and felt like i lost some agility. hahas..
Drank my week away, thats y it passed so quickly. Another eventful week. Haiz. Wonder u guys have been watching "Tang Xin Feng Bao" on SCV channel 55 lately? Its abt a family, keep quarelling here and ther, over work over everything.
I likened the show to my family currently. Not saying its exactly the same, but alike. Workin for your parents is no mean feat, not as easily as it looks. Always under pressure to NOT to put a foot wrong, to the slightest detail. U get depressed if u do, or even worse, tempers flare. I admit im quite short-tempered at times, esp. while working with your family, tend to flare up even more easily. I cant explain why, its the pressure, or the stress or u are workin for your own money anyway..I really cant pinpoint a particular reason why. And once the argument starts, it is brought back home to dinner, to the next day...Sigh..

我为朋友兩肋插刀,
谁为我 ?

I always help people...
but who will help me??

Leavin..

Sorry if i angered u.
Sorry if i disappointed u.

Guess I deserve this treatment.

Anyway..heres a nice song.

Leavin' by Jesse, hopefully u'll be able to follow the lyrics below.

No courage, no confidence...

For once, I wanna do something to help..My long serving domestic helper whos with my family since im like 9 or 10, has been causing trouble while im in germany..Even my dad, gave up on her..I want to talk to her..what happened? wads causing all these..but when the right time finally came, i had no courage to talk to her..I didnt noe how to...I just dun trust myself anymore..I wanna make something right..but just cant..no confidence in doing anything...Seems like i lost something..my life...I lost my life...just an empty shell now...working my time away..........

L.i.F.e

Whats happening to me?? underperforming at both workplaces..Makin mistake after mistake. Im not angry at anyone..Just at myself. Sometimes although im 'helping' out, am i more of a nuisence than of help? would they be better off without me? At least they are assured of getting it right if they do things by themselves, as she said..Maybe i shld just quit and stay at hm instead of causing trouble to others..

Come to think of it..I really suck at everythin I do. Basketball in pri sch, badminton, football, judo, now work, studies(although i admit im not the most hardworking). Nthg to be proud of. Im really hopeless. I dunno wad to do in my life anymore. Recently this guy auctioned off his life on the internet, hoping to start anew..and got 1+ million dollar bids. im sure mine is worth much less.

And last thing..I wanna mention abt this bunch of con-ners. Money suckers. Whatever u call them. I just wanna say have u ppl not got anything better to do, other than go ard checking here and there, tryin to suck as much money as u can? C'mon everyone knows how rich u ppl are alr..Okie. So u want to check, FINE. Had alr prepared to the smallest detail as to whr the money had gone, u still dun wanna accept, and check till 6-7 yrs back summore..And after that, add up a total LARGE sum of amt. Lemme ask u. Whr is yur conscience. DO u think we can rmb wad happened 6-7 yrs ago? Not to mention small details here and there..There are definitely discripancies..But wad u r tellin us now is u want more than wad we ought to give. DOUBLE of the amount as penalty. Are u out of yur mind? Sick corrupted ******* Anyway, I just hope the time when we decided to give in, u guys can fcuk off and leave us alone.

Military cant come soon enough. ppl say everythin is planned out for u for 2 yrs. prob. these 2 yrs mite be a critical period for me to ponder and think abt my future and life...