Cant take it anymore!!

y do people cling on to the past so much? Some memories are beautiful, but others are painful as well..regrettin what u did or what u did not..just so difficult..im sorry for what i did not manage to do properly..
I know that its an answer which will disappoint..so wads the point? y do i still cling on? its impossible now...Really cant take this anymore..can i just heck care and come clean, and risk losing it..haiz...

Work work..

Had been workin so much this past week!! 7 days straight man..how cool is that...totally drained..People ask, chiong so much for what? Seriously, if u ask me, I dunno. really.

Haiz..Its so difficult..hope I had made the right decision and wont regret it in time to come....Sorry.

Graduate...again..

hahas..second graduation in 1 mth+..Seems like Im more prepared for this one..but still a little disappointed that it did not turn out the way i predicted..
3 yrs just passed us just like that..not to mention 4 mths in germany..This day brought back some memories of the last day the program ended but not as emotional..Dun get me wrong..its was still a sad occasion..leavin all my frenz..but wad was disappointing is that even my own class, only half of them turned up..it mite be the last time we will be meetin in such a big grp, and they couldnt care less..so much for 3 yrs of tgtness and frenship..We dun even have a class photo with everybody in it..I never had one in secondary sch and now even in poly..haiz..but FA is still a great class..great ppl..although troubles were plenty, its all over now..lets forgive and forget yea?
well at least NCG was there so it didnt feel too bad..thank u! Love u guys a lot really..hope that we can keep in contact in the future when we work, when we grow old..Best buds!! Not to forgettin the soccer gang..crazy bunch of ppl..lol..although tep sux, but it brought me this huge bunch of soccer buddies..hahaha..N my cca of coz..judo bros..Da best CCA i have joined in my life..Another huge bunch of bros..Will miss all the crazy trainin sessions over there..
Will miss school life so much! hahas..

Our captain is back!

Just on thursday..our captain of GHBD FC, got back from France! haha..Its great to see him back..hopefully he will be able to bring GHBD back from the dead..He shared some crazy pics and vids from his side..definitely crazier than ours!! haha...Its great..promise to show you some soon!

Yesterday was great too! Met up with classmates..haha..Mic, shing, xp, matt, kiat and jf! Great, great time..gave out presents, had manhattan dinner and went to ben and jerrys to chill..Mic you are grown skinny la..no kiddin..And jf..yur hair is long just again just like 3 yrs ago..lol..

And today judo outing at last!! Havent seen the guys for so long man..Jere, Subi, Ws, Xy, Ivy, Peh, yz...met at 3+ but in the end bought movie tix for 1140 show! omg..hahas..but had a great time..esp at minds cafe..haha..The games are just cool..BUT we guys played Risk for like abt 3.5 hrs! Dummkopf! hahaha...Played true colors later..to see wat your frens think abt u..haha..What happens in Vegas was great! Real funny..but ending was na ja...nthg special...

Scotty =)

im back...but...

Hey guys im back! Singapore! As much as i hate that fact...i have to face reality and realize its over..The beautiful dream is over..I cant turn back time...



Once Shachin, Dick and me stepped out of the new Terminal 3 on 1st May abt 1630, I went straight to my family and hugged them...as i was really thankful to my parents for giving me this opportunity..Without them, I dun tink I will even have the chance to be so emotional and all..

So...I wondered how my life will turn out to be after comin back? Even the first night felt weird..for the first time in 4 months stayin so far away from Rikson (Rikki and Dickson)..haha..ok that sounded a little gay...

First day we are back, played some football in sch...but somehow din manage to enjoy it so much..Sorta missed the Jahnhall, which is the Sports hall where we played in Deutschland..

Has been living like a dead man since then, just listenin to music, lookin at photos all day long..then realised that so much happened at home when im not around..My bro and my maid...So much!! Its like from Heaven being hit right straight to hell..

Then, is as if I left all my luck behind in Deutschland, the adapter for charging my labby spoiled, so with my LOW batt life..bottom line I cant use my labby at all..haiz..Not only this, when my dad was coming home, he scratched his car...and on the same night, when I was abt to drive out, I scratched the other car...haiz haiz...Was passiert?!?

Today I went to try to get a new adapter, costs S$160...den to top things all off...becoz my cam's LCD screen cracked in Germany, I went to fix it..I bought it just last nov...only almost half year old and still under warranty...They just told me that I have to pay for it...S$284, after Discount! WTF..Its still only half year old! The person still had the cheek to check my record and tell me, "O..u stay in Springside Ave? Den you still have to think so long meh?" Fcuk off la..Stay there big ar..Stay there den can give u all my money la..alda fresse du fisch kopf! Then came home, told them, kena nag by mum again.."told u not to...U just dun listen..."

haiz...im missin life there so so much alr..carefree...total TOTAL freedom..and not only that...I could actually study in my time there too..but comin back..so many distractions..so many of this..so much of that..I sorta knew why my bro stayed in Japan till now..havin no thoughts of comin back at all...he muz be really enjoyin his life in his own way so much..no restrictions..no worries..just restrain self-control at times and u'll be fine..miss it so so much..

Den, with presentations to director and students comin up, and helpin my parents in their company, trainin for napfa, army...how can I take it? This fast pace life..sux so so much...

I wanna live in Mosbach, though its a small little town, it has everythin u need..quiet, peaceful..no worries, and no ppl in the streets after 6pm..hahaha...

And of coz all the frenz there...I said so many times..but i really miss them so much! haiz..

Scott..

Guess this is goodbye...

Since January we have been here...I will treasure every moment for it...

Would like to thank all juniors...U definitely left footprints in my life..no doubts abt it..

And I thank u Sascha,

when I was gettin emotional and crying the other night...U told me this wonderful line..

`Dont be sad its over, be happy beause its beautiful..´

Thanks man.

But it didnt work. Coz I think I cried even harder...hahas..

And to Helen Silvia and Beatrice for this German saying..

`We will always meet twice in life!´

I certainly hope so..

I will remember it forever...Juniors 2008 4 LiFe!

Scott

Last 5 days in Mosbach..

It is now almost impossible i tink..to give up and move on? After so long...Ich weiss nicht...haiz..

On sunday, when me n rickson(rikki and dickson) are studyin for our exams on the next day, dick got emo'ed and kept sayin we are left with a week, and play "leaving" or "goodbye" songs..
We could not study at all..haiz..we came so far..I feel so at home here..we kept sayin 2 more months will be perfect..but will it? I dun tink anytime will make any diff..It is too precious to be measured by time..
Will we ever meet our class again?

The Germans who came to London with us?
Sylvia, Helen and Beatrice
The German version of Xp, Mic, Shing?
Felicitas, Lisa Durr and Anna
The Claudia Schiffer of our class and her best friend?
Tina and Melanie
The most attentive in class?
Lisa Hartmann
The best friends?
Nadja and Stefanie
The friendly horse expert?
Nadine
The ever enthusiastic and course speaker?
Janina
The German monsters!?
Frank, Sascha, Stephan
The Guitarist?
Andreas

And of coz the internationale!
Slovenians!
Feat. Jernej "Beer king" Jerman and Tjasa "Master Chef" Pavli
French!
Feat. David "Junkie" Humbert, Romain "Dancer" Bosio, Maeva "Schoko-Bons" Levy and Maud "Dennis" Bouquet!!
Russian!
One and only Ekaterina "Little Ms Devil" Bolsunnn!!

Not forgetting the others who are not in the Business class...
French again!
Feat. Joseph "The Clown, Joker, DOINK" Turan, "Accident driver" Lillian, "Wow player" Francios and "Prisoner" David
Georgian!
"Solo samba king" Jakob!
The Germans!
"TALL, Multinational" Christina and "Party Machine" Natalia!

There are so many...so many...that I left out...I just know it...

Scott...